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az i walk alone in da cold rain,
ma mind drifted away to the pazt.
to wut i uzed to be
to the secrets i used to keep.
doz werdz & confusionz ponderin in ma head,
yet now im not alone animore, infact i waz nva alone, ive ma angelz
ive found ma hepinezz.. him
world meltz awayy, swiiit n tanggyyy
i am thy undivine

Thursday, June 23, 2005

Dreaming of your face

Filling my heart My inner space

You imbue my world and free my soul

With out your love and that of the majesty

With out you I would never be whole

Nothing can overwhelm me like you do

Nothing could ever lead me astray

Yours is the only love I need to be true

Thieves can never steel your glow

Your resonating light

It shines inside me too and

I won’t ever let it go

I am most vulnerable when it comes to you

You read between the lines and make it an art

You have seen the best and worst of me

And you still do

Love me the way you do

With your soul mind body and heart

I will always love you through and through

You are the undersetting for all I want to be

With you in my life I could always reach higher and higher

I could shape the stars and make new constellations

Just for you to see

This is how I will always feel about you

Always more and never less

Always dreaming of you

::*::*::*::*::*::*::*::*::

He came n drop by while i waz havin ma lunch at Delifrance PS wit Hakimah. Drop by juzt to give me smtn. Not a token of Love nor any special giftz. In a blue plastic, inside a 'ziplock bag', there liez a few pieces of 'roti boyan'. Knowing i lurve dem. Ain't he juz da sweetezt? How cud i even tink bout lookin elzewhere when 'the finezt' iz perfectli here fer me to keep? And der he iz.. To start off ma imperfect day, in an imperfect world.. But wut i do noe bout perfectionz iz tat... Itz not bout da perfectionz of maslf tat makez him adore me, but da imperfectionz tat he seez in me wich he perfected wit his perfectedly blissed soul.

5:36:00 PM
alone* in the rain;

Wednesday, June 22, 2005

Can't you see that I want to be

There with open arms,

It's empty tonight and I'm all alone,

Get me through this one,

Do you notice I'm gone?

Where do you run to so far away?

I want you to know that I miss you,

I'm writing again,

These letters to you aren't much I know,

But I'm not sleeping, you're not here,

The thought stops my heart,

No more looking,

I've found home.

11:26:00 PM
alone* in the rain;

Tuesday, June 21, 2005

Why r people hating each otha? Why r people blamin othaz fer deir misfortunez? Why do da innocence getz da blame n yet da villain stayz untouched? Why do people hate? Why do people despise? Why do people bear grudgez? Why???

Feeding on my fears and angry admissions

Flowing through the air with bad intentions

Great to few, horrible to some

Subtle at times, massive for fun

Why cant people forgive? Nor cant they forget? Izit reli once a miztake foreva iz condemned? Where iz the lovee? Be more lighthearted, be more giving, be more loving, be more civil. Wutz so dificult bout tat? Theres more to life then al this small2 tingz. Giving us choices it will just reprive. Making us feel we have control. Not knowing what more is about to unfold.

Learning to take the good with the bad

That's the lesson it teaches and the plan it had

Dealing with it is the only way

After so much pain things are bound to be ok

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Ok ok enuf of all diz stuffz.. The day haz been good. Im at werk ryt now, updatin ma blog cuz ppl haz simply been complainin tat diz blog is stagnant heheh. Im doin all of u guyz a favor okie so stop complainin hehh. It haz been a coolin day so far wit rain in d wee hrz of d morn. Juz had ma lunch wit Ogyy, Hakimah & Saiidah at PS Long John Silver. Juz hate the fries i duno y blearghh.. Orh yea afta i got back frm lunch, i got a small tub of Ben&Jerrys (choc fudge browniez) ice cream frm Z weee~~~ ma favrit!! Thank u soo much Zee! *huggiez*~~~

Hmmmzz itz almoz 1530hrs now hehe time fer ma break.. So wher elze cud i be headin? Heheh off toWatsons in Park Mall, i gez tatz lyk our shoppin haven az itz our nearest 'shoppin outlet' heheh, PS too far away larr fer our 15minz break. Heyy gota run noww.. Gota give tat small Watsons oulet some business hehehh. I'l be chekin out fer potato chipz... Or shud i get chocz?? Haieezz ma swiit sinful temptationz...~~

1:12:00 PM
alone* in the rain;

Monday, June 20, 2005

Upz and downz along the way

Have only made uz stronger

So that together forever we will stay,

Lonely and afraid no longer.

No one knowz me az well az you

I’ve never known a love so strong

I’ve never know a love so true

I guezz I’ve alwayz known, it’z with you that I belong.

Hand in hand we shall stand

To spend the rezt of our dayz.

On our way to the Promised Land

Staring into Lovez shining rayz.

Till one day on the other side we shall be

Side by side loving each other

Throughout Eternity...

7:14:00 PM
alone* in the rain;

Came to werk late todae, not becuz i woke up late, but bcuz i had tummy ache. N no i din take mc cuz i fil bad on not goin to werk. Do i smell a sense-of-loyalty here or wut? Hehehh gd gd geeerl...~~ *gave maslf a pat on da back*

I reach werk at 10:30 instead of da normal timing at 9am to find out tat Kak Wati was on leave. Gee sudenli i felt bad callin her up in d mrnin juz now to infrm her of ma late-comin. Nwaez feelz kinda funny thou wen i rched ma desk. Firdaus who was seatin beside me had move to da nex desk, Farah's desk. Farah had move on to another job, wich im shure she is excited 'bout. Thou ive known her not tat long, but i feel da lost, mite be bcuz i lyke her. Im gona miss u lil lady, i admire u fer ur courage and also ur strength as a mummy to 2 young adorable lil boys. And mind u, shez onli 22 and she have ma due rezpect. And orh yeaa Farah, i ekceli took all da star stickerz wich was previously on ur monitor cuz since Firdauz is gona dispose it, i mite as well kp it fer remembrance sake *grinzz*

Not reli a gd dae at werk, havin headache most of da tymez but werk haz to go on yea... Had bee hoon soto fer lunch wit Hakimah n Saiidah. Ma otha lunch matez, Ogyy & Hajar was on leave todae. Sucha long long day at werk.. Izit da Monday Bluez? Well i gez soo....

Itz curentli 1900hr, n im stil at werk, not shure yet wut tyme gona knock off frm werk.. Derz onli 5 of uz left, da rest had gone home... Da office sudenli feelz so quiet n cold... So soo quiet tat wen either one of us click on our mouse or punch on our keyboardz, it kinda feelz abit deafenin.

Missin ma Hunnie badly, im soo gona giv u a big huggiee wuggiee wen i cya laytaa.. Juz cun get enuf of u.. Wit u, itz not juz 'bout the capability of makin me happy, but oso not to make me cry..

*her heart desirez only him*

6:47:00 PM
alone* in the rain;

Saturday, June 18, 2005

Heyy ppl.. ya i noe i noe.. Have not been bloggin ryt, alar im juz pretty lazyy larr.. Or izit Lazyliee pretty ?? errrr.. *go figure* hehh... Nwaez im actually at werk ryt now n yea im using the tyme to ofcuz get ma job done and oso doin the 'sambil-sambilan' tingz hehehe.

Basicali lyfe haz been treatin me quite well.. Lurvin ma family, Lurvin ma job, Lurvin ma werk collegues and yea ofcuz Lurvin ma one n onli dearest buchuk2 DD HunnieBaby Boo....
Have been ponderin alot bout ma lyfe lately ekceli. Somhow reflectionz of ma past have kinda been hauntin me, be it good or bad. It haz been awhile since ive felt thiz way. I mean, im shure that ma lyfe is fulfilled and i mite even be the most happiezt gerl who iz pampered soo much but y am i havin doubtz? Or shud i say y am i stil feelin vulnerable and insecure haiiezz...

Eyyy time to knock off lar! ahahha havin lunch wit ma fellow collegues at Fish & Co.. Will update more.. layta... or mebi tmr.. or mebi tha day afta.. or mebi... juz mebii.... daaaaahh~~~~

12:23:00 PM
alone* in the rain;

Wednesday, April 20, 2005

IF i cud juz change ma lyfe so u were not der, wut joyz wud lyfe bring if i didnt hav to share?

I Wud walk alone, tatzs all, no more.I wud do az i pleaze with no one to care.No one to share ma heart beat,No one to sweep me off ma feet,No one to admire me, and no one to adore me.

As ma soulmate u complete me.U strengthen ma soul,U complete me in every way.

U begin tha line,U complete ma rhyme,U giv me tha right thingz 2 say

Thotz of u ignite ma fire,U are d ONLY man tatz worth ma desire,In tat very special way.

Itz a sin wut u do Causin me to desire ONLY YOU..

12:21:00 PM
alone* in the rain;

Wednesday, April 06, 2005

Special bdae wishez fer ma lovely sistaz.. Fizah <30/03>, Mira <2/04>, Azurah <5/04>

One year older

One year wiser

One year stronger

This is the way you should describe your Birthday

I bet you think it's just something people say

But to me itz not juz anotha bdae, but also anotha yr hav grown out of our fship.. ive known diz gerlz since da yr 1997 n now stil countin. mainly juz wishin dem gdluck n may God bless diz sistaz of mine. i wudnt turn back time if i have to. i wudnt regret a ting if u azked me to. cuz diz gerlz had stood by me lyk noone eva did. sistaz fer lyfe, fereva dey wud be. luv ya'l ma pretty ladiezz!

11:37:00 AM
alone* in the rain;